Divine Pedagogy - Part 1
Καλημέρα, Δ.Α.! Ελπίζω ότι όλα είναι καλά.
Karma.
It's a word that is often used in conjunction with an adjective: Good Karma, Bad Karma...
The Merriam Webster dictionary defines it as "the force generated by a person's actions held in Hinduism and Buddhism to perpetuate transmigration and in its ethical consequences to determine the nature of the person's next existence." Ouff! That's a mouthful! I think Wikipedia puts it better by saying that "it refers to the spiritual principle of cause and effect where intent and actions of an individual (cause) influence the future of that individual (effect)."
You know I never believed in karma. I don't believe in a God that will reward/punish you based on the things you do or do not do. I do believe in a loving God that teaches you when you're wrong, and that fills your heart with more love when you do good. I believe in what we call Divine Pedagogy.
I can already hear you say: What is Divine Pedagogy? Well, you could inference it from the name itself. It's just how God teaches us things as children. How does a loving father teach one his children? Isn't it with patience? tenderness? repeating the same thing over and over again? Sending though things to the child if he sees that the child is ready for it? love?
A loving father teaches his children with love, right? And it does so in order for them to know what love is and then what the father is teaching them. That way, the children also learn how to love. They become lovers. I've been saying love, love, love. What is God if not Love? God’s pedagogy is first and foremost a work of grace, since God is primarily communicating Himself.
Well, that's what I call Divine Pedagogy.
After you left my life, I have been trying to move on as you recommended. It's not been an easy journey, but I have been walking this journey of rediscovering myself. Like a pilgrimage that started around summer of 2016 and that still continues towards Love. Part of the reason that I write "The Laurel Tree Chronicles" is because that's the name I've given this pilgrimage of mine. Anyway, during this pilgrimage I've had a couple of episodes where I've been in situations that mirrored those that you disliked about me. These things that I now have lived it in my own fresh have given a new sense to the words that you said to me.
Shortly after I started this pilgrimage, I met online a girl (I'm not going to give names, so I'll give her a random one), Alice. Alice is a smart and funny lady that lives in Europe who I started talking just a friend. Quite honestly, I thought she was a God-sent because talking to her helped me focus my mind on someone that was not you. What I wasn't counting on was me being attracted to her. Initially, at least from my perspective, it seemed that the feeling was mutual. We would talk and share things pretty often. However, little by little she started to talk less. She would still answer and try to keep a normal conversation going. But whenever I would ask her to do a skype conversation, she would say "Oh. Yes. This weekend I'm available." only to later not do it. When asking about her, and making lots of questions to keep a conversation going, she would say "Oh. So many questions!" and not answer any of them only to continue with "Good morning. How are you?". And in some occasions, going MIA only to tell me "Oh. I got sick." or "Oh. I was stressed." Things like these this happened many times and they crushed my heart every single time. When do circumstantial things affect the communication with someone that you really care about? Should they? Every time I would get to talk to her, it would hurt.
When thinking about the hurt I feel, I think about how you felt. I know Alice doesn't do it on purpose. The same way, I never intended to make you feel bad on purpose. However, the fact remains that quod scripsi, scripsi. While that is now in the past, I see that the opportunity that I got to live with Alice was a wonderful life lesson that the Good Lord allowed me to live. Sure, a painful one, but sometimes children will cry before tough times and things. I believe that this experience is teaching me to grow as a person, and hopefully, I can learn from all of this to become a better lover.
While we both decided to move away from the person that hurt us, I decided to look at Alice with misericordia. I told her that while I was looking to be more than just a friend, her attitudes showed that she wasn't on the same wavelength. Because of that, I am taking some distance from her, but I am leaving the door open for a future friendship. Because that's what these life lessons are for. This is what the Divine Pedagogy is about: To become better lovers.
Karma.
It's a word that is often used in conjunction with an adjective: Good Karma, Bad Karma...
The Merriam Webster dictionary defines it as "the force generated by a person's actions held in Hinduism and Buddhism to perpetuate transmigration and in its ethical consequences to determine the nature of the person's next existence." Ouff! That's a mouthful! I think Wikipedia puts it better by saying that "it refers to the spiritual principle of cause and effect where intent and actions of an individual (cause) influence the future of that individual (effect)."
You know I never believed in karma. I don't believe in a God that will reward/punish you based on the things you do or do not do. I do believe in a loving God that teaches you when you're wrong, and that fills your heart with more love when you do good. I believe in what we call Divine Pedagogy.
I can already hear you say: What is Divine Pedagogy? Well, you could inference it from the name itself. It's just how God teaches us things as children. How does a loving father teach one his children? Isn't it with patience? tenderness? repeating the same thing over and over again? Sending though things to the child if he sees that the child is ready for it? love?
A loving father teaches his children with love, right? And it does so in order for them to know what love is and then what the father is teaching them. That way, the children also learn how to love. They become lovers. I've been saying love, love, love. What is God if not Love? God’s pedagogy is first and foremost a work of grace, since God is primarily communicating Himself.
Well, that's what I call Divine Pedagogy.
After you left my life, I have been trying to move on as you recommended. It's not been an easy journey, but I have been walking this journey of rediscovering myself. Like a pilgrimage that started around summer of 2016 and that still continues towards Love. Part of the reason that I write "The Laurel Tree Chronicles" is because that's the name I've given this pilgrimage of mine. Anyway, during this pilgrimage I've had a couple of episodes where I've been in situations that mirrored those that you disliked about me. These things that I now have lived it in my own fresh have given a new sense to the words that you said to me.
Shortly after I started this pilgrimage, I met online a girl (I'm not going to give names, so I'll give her a random one), Alice. Alice is a smart and funny lady that lives in Europe who I started talking just a friend. Quite honestly, I thought she was a God-sent because talking to her helped me focus my mind on someone that was not you. What I wasn't counting on was me being attracted to her. Initially, at least from my perspective, it seemed that the feeling was mutual. We would talk and share things pretty often. However, little by little she started to talk less. She would still answer and try to keep a normal conversation going. But whenever I would ask her to do a skype conversation, she would say "Oh. Yes. This weekend I'm available." only to later not do it. When asking about her, and making lots of questions to keep a conversation going, she would say "Oh. So many questions!" and not answer any of them only to continue with "Good morning. How are you?". And in some occasions, going MIA only to tell me "Oh. I got sick." or "Oh. I was stressed." Things like these this happened many times and they crushed my heart every single time. When do circumstantial things affect the communication with someone that you really care about? Should they? Every time I would get to talk to her, it would hurt.
When thinking about the hurt I feel, I think about how you felt. I know Alice doesn't do it on purpose. The same way, I never intended to make you feel bad on purpose. However, the fact remains that quod scripsi, scripsi. While that is now in the past, I see that the opportunity that I got to live with Alice was a wonderful life lesson that the Good Lord allowed me to live. Sure, a painful one, but sometimes children will cry before tough times and things. I believe that this experience is teaching me to grow as a person, and hopefully, I can learn from all of this to become a better lover.
While we both decided to move away from the person that hurt us, I decided to look at Alice with misericordia. I told her that while I was looking to be more than just a friend, her attitudes showed that she wasn't on the same wavelength. Because of that, I am taking some distance from her, but I am leaving the door open for a future friendship. Because that's what these life lessons are for. This is what the Divine Pedagogy is about: To become better lovers.
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