Hopes and Dreams

Γεια σου, Δ.Α.!

This will probably be the last post I will make to you. I know you are happy and I can only Bless the Lord for allowing me to see the gift your happiness. I will also do my best to be happy.

I know these are just words. You told me "Your words 'sound' sincere. But you were always good with words." I know I may not have been able to keep all my promises, however, these words come from a contrite and humbled heart which is far more than I can explain or express.

The purpose of this is to have a very gentle sharing. You take from what I share what is right for you, and what isn't, you let go.

Whatever history we had is gone, but I choose to embrace it, cherish it, and love it.

It will always live on in the one place it can safely always do so: My memory.

You will always be alive there because you starred a genuine important episode of my life which triggered a Paradigm shift in my life for my thoughts, feelings, and actions.

So, As I bid farewell, my heart stops.

In tenderness, I feel my silent empty body begins to listen to what is real.

Please, don't get me wrong.

I will miss you every minute of every day.

I miss the hope in your smile, the kindness in your voice, and the comfort in your hugs at the times when I need them most.

This pain is very real, and I expect it to last.

But I don't resist it.

I don’t have incessant suffering thoughts in my brain to magnify it.

I don't curse life and act like a victim.

I don't feel cheated.

I don't feel hatred or anger towards myself or the circumstances that we lived, and I don't blame myself for my lack of courage. Such thoughts would serve no purpose.

I choose not to suffer.

It helps me put life in perspective and move positively forward, sending you my loving wishes and prayers and keeping a happy memory of you alive.

I don't want to end this piece with my sadness or of life's painful woes.

I won't allow past mistakes crush my hopes and dreams.

Instead let these same lips sing a gentle song for you:
Even if now I am alone (from the yesterday when we were two), tomorrow's limitless.
Plus, you taught me the gentleness hidden in life.
I hope you think of me as someone who will love you no matter what.
Who will always wish you the best, for you, your husband, and all your children
(I an way, a new wish came to my heart: I hope I can be a crazy loving spiritual uncle for them... Who will try his best to be his best version of himself, for himself, and the next generation).
And who, to the best of his capabilities and possibilities, will run by your side if any of you ever need me.

I know that no one can take away the memories of  you, and that I will see you again, when Faith and Hope are no longer needed and the only thing we will have is Love.

Remember, Dafni Addisen, Love, the feeling, is fleeting. Love, the action, is a decision that stays.

I choose to love you by keeping a happy memory of you in my thoughts and in my heart, but above all, in my prayers.

Not because I expect anything in return but just simply because I love you.

After this, I can finally say, with lots of love and honesty: Σημερα ειναι μια καλη μερα για μια καλη μερα.

I've found a brightness in you, and in the love I have for you, and it will always be with me.

P.S. Dafni Addisen, I will continue to live out my #LaurelTreeChronicles until I can say, like you, that I've found the happiness I been searching for. In the meantime, this prayer is for you:

Now she goes with you now, Mother Mary, 

And in your intercession I am confident she, her husband, and children, will be protected 

For sheltered in you, her soul will come back safely to the Father. 

Dearest Mother, do not leave her side, 

Do not look away from her; 

Accompany her everywhere she may go 

And never leave her. 

And since you love her so much 

As a true Mother, 

Make it so that she is blessed by: 

The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. 

Amen 

P.S.2. Y a tí, Daniel Alfonso, tú ya sabes que este es un capítulo que fue cerrado hace mucho tiempo. Sólo recuerda decirle al Señor

Señor, me has mirado a los ojos, 

y sonriendo, has dicho mi nombre. 

En la arena he dejado esta barca: 

Junto a tí, buscaré otro mar.